I'm not sure what tumor markers are, but my numbers at first were 23. and now they are 10. Doc. says that means they getting rid of the current cancer. I have 6 more radiation treatments on the lung...then a full body pic to see if anything is lurking.
I find myself in a kinda surreal state in that what is abnormal has become my normal.
There are times that I forget the inevitable outcome of the situation and then all of the sudden I remember.....I have lung cancer that had already spread! Well Kubler-Ross had stages of grief, I think I am wandering between denial and some anger these days. I know I am tired of making other people feel good. "how are you?"
"O, just fine, I'm almost done with my treatments and I am doing well. How are you"
I could say, "well, how the hell do you think I am?"
Sydney has been leaving me out of some of the daily activities. Like I don't get to choose what kind of flowers, etc. for the yard. I'm pissed off at him for that. I called an attorney today. May sue the state of Montana for providing me with cigarettes when I was in the girls reform school in 1952.. We'll see.
About Me
- The Calico Pen
- My book "The Bastard Tree" is still available on Amazon.com and Barnes and Noble.com. I hve had a lot of positive remarks about my story and although I am not making money with it, I am glad I did it. It is one of those things that people always say, "you should write a book," so I did. I like to write and I hope you will enjoy reading what I post.
