progress?

The hard part of taking care of someone post-op cardiac surgery is the emotional support. The husband is doing well physically, well mostly, he isn't exercising his arm like he was told, which may be why he still has some pain on that side of his chest. I would think it would be like when I had to do arm exercises after my lymph nodes were removed. It was uncomfortable, but I did it in the shower and it seemed to help. Well don't try to tell mister anything!
But the real support he needs is emotional, and I don't have much to give. He complains that his summer is almost over and he didn't get to fish or travel and I think, "yea, mine too, and it could be my last summer." I don't say it (often) because he thinks I will make it happen if I speak it, my death that is.
I'm feeling hopeful, but I also am feeling weak and tired most of the time and it seems that after three to four months I should be getting stronger. Well my hair is growing! I go to the oncologist next week. He's the one who told me he couldn't justify giving me any chemo if I didn't have cancer. I was thinking preventative type treatment. Guess they don't do that.
It has been two weeks since husband's surgery. He laments the loss of barbecued pork ribs, rib steaks, fried eggs and bacon and every thing else he has ever lived for. He looks at the food ads on TV and cries. But he did get dressed and went to the grocery stor6 yesterday. He can't drive for two more weeks. I think that will liberate his mood too.
I am at work. This is my third day and I am feeling it. This week is orientation week so it is a 40 hour work week. I will only work one day a week after that, except for an occasional substitution shift. I will be glad when this week is done. I am pretty tired. Later Carol