snow in Sept.

Well, we got up to a half inch of snow in our yard this past week. I guess I shouldn't complain because I didn't think I would live to see another snow storm, but it is kind of depressing to think of winter. Today there is a autumn fog playing with the Sunshine that is promising a nice afternoon. I am considering a walk to
Giant Springs with the dogs but I may just consider it. There has been a pall of depression milling around me lately. Partly disappointed that we did not make the trip to Libby. It really wasn't about the snow. It was about Sydney lack of interest in anything but football and the weather. What a bore he is. I'm angry with him because he doesn't seem to believe my time may be limited, so it is ok to waste another day in front of the tv. He might be right. Maybe I'll live to see another summer and we will be able to do the things we planned on. But if he is wrong, then I missed a trip to Libby to watch my grandson play football.
Fall is truly here and in celebration of the season I put out my fall quilts, fake apples, pillows, etc. Next week when Sienna comes she and I will take out the Halloween things. Yesterday I found a pair of tap shoes at the goodwill. I put them in her toy box. I bet she will love them. Gardner made sweet potato soup and homemade bread on the day of snow. Now we are gathering apples for pies, sauce and maybe some apple wine.s
I haven't been to church in weeks. Maybe that is why I feel down? Well, it seems no one misses me over there. I wrote a while back about when I meet everyone in heaven it won't be a problem because I have forgiven all, but now I am wondering if they have all forgiven me. I think, some days, that I am the greatest impostor of all.
On the surface, my life seemed admirable....but in reality, it has mostly been about me. Better stories next time.