Hell might not be so bad

This week is looking better, but last week was not something you write home about, or write blogs about.
Sydney, fueled by fear, was a raging bull most of the time, and when I threw the TV remote at him and hit his close to his surgical site, it was a nasty fight. He threatened to call 911. I hated to see him pack off in the paddy wagon so I'm glad he didn't.
The next day, just as I had put my pjs on, he said "Carol you better take me to the emergency room" by the time I was dressed and ready to go he decided he was ok. Seems he couldn't get his breath because he came up the stairs too fast.
Meanwhile, Pascha and Sienna are packing for our summer vacation, which is no longer "our" vacation. Pascah and Sienna left for the Oregon coast on Friday.
Sydney can't drive for one more week, but he has been cooking a little and tending to the flowers a little...this week is better.
I am looking forward to a "book club" retreat in the mountains this next weekend, just us girls.....
I was trying to get off my steroids, I don't know why because the insurance covers them and it is a small 4mg a day dose...anyway, every time I try to reduce them I get strange "brain" side effects. at least that's what I think they are...one thing is a auditory noise, like a knocking....woodpecker...etc. lasts about 3 mins. Happened twice....also I had one day of numbness and tingling on right side....pretty bad, for about 3 minutes, but like twice an hour. Stopped now that I am back on my steroid. I also discovered that the Holy Spirit, called the comforter, can make the woodpecker go away.
My biggest stress this past week was a change in my email, because I had an ugly virus. I hate changes...
Well, hell, I have a doctor appointment this week, so I'll tell him about the woodpecker.....might have to have cat scan...Also going to see the dermatologist. Think I have two skin cancers on my cheek.
Next blog should full of better stuff. I have days where I am sorry that anyone, including Sydney, had to know I had cancer. I would like to take my camper and go park it somewhere where no one could find me...and then I could ponder things better, but here I am, where I am supposed to be....so....I'm back to work. Went through 40 hour orientation last week. Pretty dambed tiring, but now I am scheduled to work only one evening a week unless someone is ill. I guess Iller than me!
Counting my blessings didn't take too long last week. My list will be longer next time.