UPDATE

First of all, let me tell all of you who are worrying about the dagger that I have to stick into my stomach everyday. The 1/2 inch needle only goes in some of the fat I have stored around my middle and it doesn't hurt at all, although it does leave a bruise..because it is blood thinner you know.
Here is an interesting bit about the pills I am taking....they are called coumadin, but the other name is warfarin and it is the same stuff they feed rats to kill them. The rats eat that stuff and bleed to death. Hopefully, I won't. That is why I went to have my blood tested today. It is still not thin enough, so I am now going to take two of the rat poison pills for a couple of days, and three more shots. Then on Monday another blood level to see if we have thinned the blood enough. I found out today that the clot starts at the knee cap and extends down my left leg. UGG....My left left is 2 centimeters larger than the right...So now you have the facts Jack....but the facts are not the issue. The issue is my mortality, which is a little shakier than it was last week...Well, sorta....anyway here's some thoughts on letting go.
I don't care if the city fixes the pot holes: I worried myself sick for years wondering how Sydney and I would get through our old age financially. I hated the idea of getting a artificial knee. I wondered if the Mayans were right about 2012?
A lot of things don't matter to me anymore...because I can't fix them anymore and it is kinda nice not to be the fixer.....
So I say "be kind to everyone you meet because they are dying" But they don't believe they are dying so they will fix the potholes and handle the finances best they can and vote on matters that matter to them, until they find out none of it really matters.....Sound depressed? Not really, more disgusted with the resent turn of events...
Yesterday Sydney and I bought a dozen donuts and I ate six! Then for supper I had garlic bread and diet pot! Now that was a down day....At work tonight and the day is better.. Yesterday we had 9 inches of snow...I had been sad because I thought I might not see snow again and then in the morning it looked like God had taken his cake frosting gun to the trees and structures. Absolutely beautiful...now we are warming with a forcast of 70 degrees by Saturday and Sienna will be here with her own personal sunshine and Stephen is going to be in town and I have a lunch date on Sunday......